Creativity + Motherhood
Currently, I have a number of coaching clients that are both entrepreneurs and new(ish) moms and one topic that comes up over and over again is that of creativity. Or, to be more precise, the lack of it.
What I lovingly say to these driven, make-shit-happen, passionate women (and to myself) is this:
My dearest, please remember that your body recently made a HUMAN, which is the most creative it can and will ever be. The creation of life, birth and mothering have stretched you, mind, body, heart and soul, to the max. It is impractical and cruel to believe you should be back to your pre-baby way of creativity and productivity.
You can't go back to the way you were, for you are forever changed, and while you know you aren’t who you used to be, the newest version of you is still emerging.
Now is the time to nourish the well of creativity, not to hastefully tap it again.
You will once again feel creative and focused and eager for production and your readiness cannot be forced. You will know it’s time again when you feel it bubbling up in your body, oozing out your pores, exploding from your soul.
Your creativity won’t be a SHOULD but rather a joyous WANT.
And in the meantime, any work you do and accomplish in this sacred time of well-filling, nourishment and postpartum, is the icing on the cake. The cherry on top. The surprise piece of chocolate discovered at the bottom of your bag.
Please. Be gentle, nourish your newly emerging self and know that when it is time, creativity will bloom once more. Like every season, it always comes around again.
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As a self care coach, schedule buffering is one of my go to self care tips after a big presentation, after a work trip, after solo parenting, after a holiday party, and after any sort of transition. I make sure to enter slowly. I don't over commit. I leave LOTS of space for me to take it easy and move at a slower pace rather than slamming into the next thing after having just put so much out.
Women are uniquely tasked with carefully navigating the way we interact with the people around us. We aren't to make anyone mad. We can't let anyone down. We mustn't offend anyone. Don't even think of hurting anyone's feelings. And don't you dare inconvenience anyone.
Truth is, many of us are amazing shit-picker-uppers. It doesn’t matter who the shit belongs to, if someone drops a steaming pile of it in front of us, we always pick it up. Always.
I've been thinking a lot about change recently. It's as if every time I catch my breath and get used to life "as it is", something shifts. There's a change in the world. A change in my 3 year old's sleep pattern. A change in my body. A change in the law.
Change, change, everywhere change.
In my 15 years of coaching I've had countless clients ask me, "If I know I want to be less controlling in my life, why do I keep defaulting to it?" There are a number of reasons why we seek to control. Many of us developed controlling behaviors as children to create a sense of stability and safety in an otherwise chaotic/unsafe environment.
For most of my life I toggled between wanting to be a "good girl" and wanting to tell people (and systems) to leave me the f*ck alone. It was a hard line to walk with one part of me wanting to be liked and held in "high-standing" and the other feeling put upon, judged and resenting it.
Question for you: What were you taught about slowness? Perhaps you were taught that slowness is a form of laziness. Perhaps you internalized the message that going slow is a waste of precious time. Maybe you see slowness as the antithesis of productivity or worse, that slowness is a reflection of low intelligence.
Since January began, my partner Adam and I have been randomly looking at each other and making an exasperated "BLAH!" face. It's the face we use when either of us is feeling uninspired, listless or just, well, BLAH.
As the days shorten we find our bodies naturally craving slowness and inwardness.
This conversation is between myself and an incredible woman named Ani, who shares how she learned how to be authentic, practice self-compassion, and take up space without guilt or shame through my 6-month group coaching program, Homecoming. Ani is a model for how to excavate internalized misogyny and live authentically without fear of others’ opinions. The conversation originally took place on podcast, The Path Home.